Sorry #2

I hate it.

I hate getting into those moods where I want to delete stuff and I'm totally okay with it, but later on I regret it.

I've always been doing this shit.

Deleting old journal posts. I cleared out my entire Pokémon journal on Insanejournal, that had over a thousand posts or so (I think?) and a ton of userpics because I lost interest in the anime. I deleted journal entries from my other journals and I'd be running around looking on Google cache and web archive trying to recover some of them.

I deleted so much fanfiction. And my Tumblrs. All those posts, gone. I even nuked my Livejournal.

Dammit. Why do I do this?

I'm so sick of this.

I wish I could just go back in time and save it all, and stop myself from getting into that nasty fandom too. But all I can do is regret and regret...

It sucks.

I'm sorry for being a shitty person.

I wish I could undo it all, but I can't.

I feel so miserable but there's nothing I can do.

Sorry. I'm really sorry.